The outside of our book looks new. The cover is in pristine condition. It has a beautiful photo of a picture perfect family. And there are no dents or scratches to be found. But when you open the book, the pages are warn and damaged. There are chapters missing. There is evidence of several paper cuts from the blood on the corners. The binding is frailing, barely holding the book together. The story does not make sense. And there are no happy endings. In fact there is no ending at all, many pages are blank.
In chapter 23 here is what you will read over and over, page after page of Kolbys typical day. He wakes up with Aspen in the middle of the night, feeds her, and puts her back to sleep. Wakes up at 6:00 am to study, do homework, read scriptures and reads a section from his favorite book. Takes care of Aspen till I wake up usually around 8. If I'm sick or in pain, he makes me breakfast.
Then he goes to work and goes above and beyond. He's the hardest worker you will ever meet and I can absolutely guarantee you that. He takes pride in his work. He expects nothing but the best from himself. By our many conversations about his work I know He is honest, a perfectionist, and timely. And no one knows at work what he goes through at home.
When he comes home he helps me with Aspen, and takes care of me if I'm not doing well. He will massage my head and neck, runs me a bath, holds my hand. Anything he can think of to ease or distract my pain. Cleans and cooks if I haven't been able to get around to it.
Everyone is always asking Kolby to fix something because they know he knows how to do just about everything. And always finds the time to help people with whatever they need. Like fixing their lawn mowers, cars, toilets, sinks, yards, sprinklers, vacuums, washers, dryers, garbage disposals, dishwashers.. You name it, he's done it. He enjoys making others lives a little bit easier even if it makes his a little more difficult.
Then he goes to study and do homework again. When he's finished with that he usually comes to bed, helps me to sleep by rubbing my feet almost every night. Goes to sleep and does it all over again.
If I'm having a good day and am able to have somewhat of a productive day, he praises me for the hard work I've done. And sincerely tells me how much he appreciates me for what I've accomplished. Kolby never complains about his life. He forces himself to have control of his emotions and to keep his composure. And tells me that even if he knew before we were married me that I would be so ill he would still have married me.
Sometimes my anger and frustration gets the best of me. And a lot of the time it ends up being taken out on him, when obviously he does not deserve that. I will cry, scream, break things and you know what he does...?? He hugs me.. He HUGS me!!! What kind of crazy person that is getting screamed at for something not even their fault, hugs the person screaming? I think he's more insane than I am sometimes.
If someone treated me like that there is no way I would allow it. I would probably punch them, lock them in a room, and let them deal with it on their own. But he never leaves me alone, sometimes it makes me so angry that he doesn't. And he always figures out a way to unlock the door. But afterwords I'm usually glad that he did, because he's the only thing that can make me feel better.
Kolby is constantly working to better himself with his education, work, and life skills. Always willing to go the extra mile, and make changes so that he can be all that he can be. And loves to learn, he's like a sponge and soaks up anything and everything he can.
Every day I beg him to give up something because he can not possibly continue to give 100% to his family, 100% to work and 100% to school. But he continues to prove me wrong and gives 300%. I know I hold him back because I know I could not handle what he handles. But I just need to accept that he can so that he can be all that he can be.
A damsel in distress, I was ready to write "the end" to my book at only chapter 15. And then I was rescued by my Prince Charming. He gave me a reason to keep living, or should I say, keep writing. Many of our pages are blank because we have not finished our story. We have many adventures to go on, and lessons to learn. But I do know that there will be a happy ending, and It will close in beautiful cursive letters "and they lived happily ever after."
Thank you for sticking with our story and seeing it through to the end. And we appreciate those of you who have helped keep our novel together. I can't wait to fill our pages with you in them. This is my husbands first Fathers Day. I would love for you to "fill a page" of the love and appreciation you have for him. I think this sentimental Father's Day gift of words would mean more to him than anything money could buy.